will this be on the exam?

i found out yesterday that 'the bollywood beauty' has been set as a prescribed text for a post-grad literature unit at the university of the south pacific. as much as i day-dreamed about something like this happening in the days before published author-dom - i mean, what could be better for sales than getting your book on a reading list, thereby forcing panicked students to buy a copy at the start of semester? - there is a flip-side

firstly, the realisation that your book will be studied. the characters and their motivations will be dissected, the language will be picked apart. i know how brutal i got in my lit. units back at uni. i am happy, however, that the novel begins with the words 'in the end'. does this have any significance? discuss...
the second thing is that it's going to be studied in fiji. apart from the occasional swearing and drug use, i wonder what will be made of its description of fiji through the eyes of these two indian girls. i hope everyone realises that these characters are not representative of the way i think all indian girls feel. i just hope i don't offend anyone.

as penance, i have decided to go where i never thought i would - i have pledged to read the whole book, from start to finish, without skipping any bits, or trying to get hung up on sentences i wish i'd deleted/elaborated on/edited. i started this morning on the way to work. i have hidden the book inside a jacket for another book, because i don't think that even i can bring myself to openly read my own book in public. it's just not right.

it's only now that i understand why other authors never read their own books once they've been published. in the final stages before publication it was all about editing what was already there and adding bits in to flesh areas out. in the little progress i made on the train this morning, i am noticing that i deleted some sentences i thought were still in there. it's kinda scary.
i hope i like this book i wrote.